这是一个漫长的夜。过多的记起一些快乐和悲伤的往事。停留在放弃和坚持之间，犹豫不决。

这是一个漫长的夜。想起我和你之间的对话，对今天的兑现，对未来的决定。

这是一个漫长的夜。黑夜总是悄悄溜走，今夜却特别冗长和沉寂。这夜里的风吹去了哪里？落叶也是静悄悄的。

这漫长的夜，黎明来的太慢；这漫长的夜，幸福来的太慢；在这里漫长的夜里，连我的心跳都停止了。

What this shit world is ! I have no way to understand it. What this shit love is! I have no idea to define it. What I know is I truly loved you and you were my whole world. It was a beautiful,  powerful and magic world. And you just destroyed.

How possibly you done this to me! How possibly you lied me for 4years! How possibly I trusted you so easily !  I was so in love with you in last 4 years, and I believed you do so until I found truth.  But I still have a lot of questions, and I am so scared to searching' for the answers. It's also not matter anymore , the matter is you are with her.

Days ago, you were sending me SMS said I miss you. I was wondering do you really miss me?  I can not trust you anymore. What about this 4years love then ? It sounds mean less, you just kick it to the garbage can.

I just feel sad and sorry for myself!

经历了一段也许很久也不会忘却的往事。这段时间里家里所有的人聚在一起纪念一个人，然后在周五送她离开。

我希望她离开的时候带着幸福，不再感受孤独和痛苦。她会知道她的兄弟姐妹，她的子女，她的孙子，外孙儿女都记得她一生廉洁，坚强和善良。她离开的时候我们都感到欣慰，她未曾受太多的苦。

母亲依然觉得她未曾离开，我闭上眼睛就能看见她躺在那里，就像睡着了一样。我的舅舅，表弟，小姨也会这样想念她。我知道我们都会很想念她。

愿她一路走好！